Gain and Loss

Grótta Lighthouse

Grótta Lighthouse

It has been approximately six and a half months since I arrived in ‘The Land’, and it does rather seem more like six and a half years. So much has taken place in this period of time. It is quite difficult to take it all in.

There has been a lot of loss for me this year, looking at things one way. Looking at things another way, there’s been a lot of gain for me this year. So it really depends on which way one chooses to look.

I recently returned from a brief trip to the UK for my step-father’s funeral. I would not have been able to go without my mother’s generosity making it possible for me to do so. I hope to repay her at some point in time when I am able to. It was good to have the time off, even for such a sad occasion. I got to see a lot of people, some of whom I have not seen since I left for the US over twenty years ago.

I was concerned that once I stopped, once I really stopped, I would not be able to get going again. I had a week off, keeping my mum company mostly, seeing my two sisters and their children, and my long time friend who’s been going through his own changes of late. It is a good kind of friendship when you can just pick up where you left off, even when it has been years since you last saw each other.

It was great to see these people again, people I care so much about. I have been so far from them for so long. Now I am far from the people I was close to, and nearer to them. It is around two and a half hours to London, England, and only a couple of hours to Glasgow, Scotland. I want to visit more when I get the chance to. There has been talk of new airlines opening routes to and from Iceland, with lower prices. If that all comes to fruition, which I am sincerely hoping for, I will be taking advantage of it. It has been too long that I have been away.

So I have been able to reconnect with people, which is a good thing.

I have met so many new people this year I have lost count, not that I was actually counting. I am looking forward to meeting more too. My life is definitely growing in the social arena, through several different avenues, and I am expanding on that. I like people, generally, and I have met some very interesting ones this year. I feel rich in this respect, and getting richer. It is the sort of richness I want from life, and I am embracing it as much as I can.

It is a big change for me, having spent so long being basically isolated from people as a stay-at-home dad on a farm in rural Pennsylvania. It is a good change. A change I have longed for. Yet, it took loss to bring it about.

I have been able to return to art, and have plans to do more. I have been able to delve further into photography, improve myself, and expand into new areas. I have even written poetry.

I have seen a lot of art. Drawings, paintings, sculptures. I have had the opportunity to make repeat visits to see things, gaining something new each time, or simply becoming very familiar with them.

I have explored the area around me on foot. I even had a romantic afternoon walk along the black sand beach nearby, toward the lighthouse island, without any company to share it with at the time.

There is much that I may feel I have lost, yet I have gained so much, and continue to gain more.

Above all else, it is the people I have met, and the experiences we have shared together.

Bless Bless og Sjáumst!